calling out to the Universe

You have never made it easy for me. Never. It has always been a game: of choices, of opportunities, of quid pro quos.

But I have to give it to You. You have never left me wanting for anything, really, and I am thankful. Despite all the negatives & all the tests, here I am standing, still thriving, still holding on.

Sometimes, though, I wish You'd just make things a wee bit easier for me. Like don't make me choose. Or don't offer me something which will create an opportunity cost. Or just give me what I want on a silver (or make it platinum) platter. And I would be happy.

The funny thing is, I don't even know if I would realize a simple sign from You when I get one. You who have always teased me, confused me, toyed with the complexities my wary, critical, skeptical mind will always consider. But I have never questioned You as much as I have now... Only because I feel myself getting tired. It's a neverending game of survival. I have proved myself to You over & over. Still, the tests come. Harder, more difficult, more complicated.

I am but human. The possibilities are endless. But please, for once, I need the straight, direct, simple sign.

Give it to me. I ask You to give it to me.

If all else fails, I will know that there's still something else out there for me.

Someday. Somewhere. And make it soon.

I have Faith. I believe.