Wednesday, December 31, 2008

endless possibilities



a new year. a fresh start. 

2008 was great because i had rauf.  everything else was just icing on the cake called "rauf"
the rest of the year... well, let's just call it the spice of the life that has always been mine to make and break.

2009 will be another year which will be mine to make... for me. for rauf.  i am embracing this as OURS.  no breaking it this time around.

come hell or high water, this year will be OUR year. 

- - -

DO OR DO NOT. THERE IS NO TRY. -master yoda

happy new year!!!


Monday, December 15, 2008

party time



food, alcohol, great conversation and good music usually make great parties. usually.

the problem is, though i had all four last night at our office christmas party and the party went great (i think), i didn't really get to groove & have fun because i played hostess of the program.  now i've done hosting stints and i can say in all honesty that hosting a party means you won't really get to enjoy the party, but i sooo wanted to have fun last night.  see... this is my first christmas party with this office.  but i couldn't say no to the hosting assignment because it was literally forced down my throat.  i totally blame it on my party-going mode during our last get-together, since we all found the event a bit ho-hum, i took it upon myself to play videoke mistress (now that's a term i love. haha.) that night.  and since i think that they think i did well, it was a foregone conclusion that i would host last night's party again.


it was okay up until the oldies began to mess with the program, literally TELLING us (me & my LATE co-host joseph) to call on whoever to sing a song or two, resulting in a longer program which i couldn't help save anymore.  what can i do, i'm the junior-est junior lawyer.  as hostess, i just wanted to keep the peace. haha.


so... even if i got to drink a glass of wine and guzzle down 3 san mig lights (how pitiful. for a party that started at 6 and ended at 12, that's my lowest low ever. hahaha.), i totally did not enjoy the party.  but it's okay.  (obviously, i just want to rant about a wasted supposed-drinking session. haha.)


it wasn't a party for me.  it was work.  hay naku.  so i hope to high heavens that tonight, at the An Waray christmas party, i will get to have fun as i wasn't able to last night.  oh. and i have another one tomorrow, with my beloved original law school block.  it's major bawi chika & inuman time!!!


kampai!



Sunday, December 14, 2008

the price of children




This is just too good not to pass on to all. Something absolutely positive
for a change. I have repeatedly seen the breakdown of the cost of raising
a child, but this is the first time I have seen the rewards listed this
way. It's nice.

The government recently calculated the cost of raising a child from birth
to 18 and came up with P5,404,725.00 for a middle income family. Talk
about price shock! That doesn't even touch college tuition.

But P5,404,725.00 isn't so bad if you break it down. It translates into:

* P300,262.50 a year,
* P25,021.88 a month, or
* P6,255.50 a week.
* That's a mere P893.64 a day!
* Just over P37.23 an hour.

Still, you might think the best financial advice is don't have children if
you want to be "rich." Actually, it is just the opposite.

What do you get for your P5,404,725.00?

* Naming rights. First, middle, and last!
* Glimpses of God every day.
* Giggles under the covers every night.
* More love than your heart can hold.
* Butterfly kisses and Velcro hugs.
* Endless wonder over rocks, ants, clouds, and warm cookies.
* A hand to hold, usually covered with jelly or chocolate.
* A partner for blowing bubbles and flying kites.
* Someone to laugh yourself silly with, no matter what the boss said
or how your stocks performed that day.

For P5,404,725.00, you never have to grow up. You get to:

* finger-paint,
* dress-up for halloween,
* play hide-and-seek,
* catch lightning bugs, and
* never stop believing in Santa Claus.

You have an excuse to:

* keep reading the Adventures of Piglet and Pooh,
* watch Saturday morning cartoons,
* go to Disney movies, and
* wish on stars.
* You get to frame rainbows, hearts, and flowers under refrigerator
magnets and collect! spray painted noodle wreaths for Christmas, hand
prints set in clay for Mother's Day, and cards with backward letters for
Father's Day.

For a mere P893.64 a day, there is no greater bang for your buck. You get
to be a hero just for:

* retrieving a Frisbee off the garage roof,
* taking the training wheels off a bike,
* removing a splinter,
* filling a wading pool,
* coaxing a wad of gum out of bangs, and coaching a baseball team
that never wins but always gets treated to ice cream regardless.

You get a front row seat in history to witness the:

* first step,
* first word,
* first bra,
* first date, and
* first time behind the wheel.

You get to be immortal. You get another branch added to your family tree,
and if you're lucky, a long list of limbs in your obituary called
grandchildren and great grandchildren. You get an education in psychology,
nursing, criminal justice, communications, and human sexuality that no
college can match.

In the eyes of a child, you rank right up there under God. You have all
the power to heal a boo-boo, scare away the monsters under the bed, patch
a broken heart, police a slumber party, ground them forever, and love them
without limits, so one day they will, like you, love without counting the
cost. That is quite a deal for the price!!!!!!!

Love & enjoy your children & grandchildren & great-grandchildren !!!!!!!

It's the best investment you'll make!

- - -

re-posting this from an email i received.  i couldn't help but smile.  but at the end of it all, having and raising a child is really priceless :)


Friday, December 12, 2008

passing time




i'd love to think that Fate just wanted to prepare us for these realities... me still here, you still there, living different lives in two different worlds.  we are more careful because we are older, wiser, and more mature. (are we?)

yet i continue to wonder where this will all end... where you or i, or you and i, will end up.

hope floats.  and plans can be made.  but it's the possibilities of the world and our parallel but different lives that will dictate the choices we will make.

unless we decide not to choose.

but i think it's too late to even think about not making a choice.  or whatever.  we never know.

2 months down.  and everything's still looking up. 

thanks for the simple happiness of knowing that life, and possibly love, still awaits. 

for now.


Sunday, December 7, 2008

toys for the (big?) boys



i think it was last tuesday or wednesday when niccolo came home late and finding rauf awake, he excitedly told mother & son that he had pasalubong for his favorite (hay. as if they all have a choice. haha.) nephew.  he switched off the lights and suddenly, neon lights were blinking from a spinning top.  and the small top was playing some techno music which i hadn't heard before.  rauf's eyes were like saucers! :)

apparently, niccolo had just come from quiapo and found this new contraption being sold there.  needless to say, it was a hit with everyone, from rauf to my dad to the yayas, who couldn't believe that it cost niccolo PhP 200 to buy the toy.  (naku, nicx, as if we all believe you'd buy that kun tu-od adto. hahahaha.) 

- - - - -

there's a new wii console at home.  dad got it for seal's 13th birthday.  although we think he's playing favorites again (seal is our youngest.  dad & mom were particularly waxing sentimental last friday, very affected by the fact that their youngest is now a teenager. haha.), having a new plaything at home aside from rauf is refreshing. hehehe...

so i don't have pictures to post yet, but here's the deal:  they got the wii sports edition.  and it's not only seal and my other brothers who are enjoying the new toy.  count me, wawan and... ta-daaah! MY MOM!!! in.   we all love this new source of family bonding, and had i known playing wii was this fun, i'd have bought it eons ago. hehehe :)

happy, happy birthday, tito seal! 7th and youngest of the brood, and the doting-est doting uncle to rauf! mwa!



Wednesday, December 3, 2008

20 questions



as i write this, i'm playing 20 questions with a very good friend.  my questions seem so high school-ish, and the answers come fast.  maybe because everything seems so simple.  or maybe because the real "us" is easy to reveal to the people we trust.

we take a lot of things in life for granted, and i am thankful that in moments like these, we get to go back to the simple realities of who we are, what we love doing and what we still want to become.

so this christmas, here's wishing that all of us look back and remember the kid that we used to be, and go back to the real meaning of christmas joy:  Christ, family, love and peace.

now how i related 20 questions to the christmas season is weird... but heck, reflections come  at anytime, at any moment.

carpe diem!!!


tagged and willing to play :)



tagged by danikook, willing to play, and definitely game!

Here are the instructions:
   1. Open up the music player on your computer.
   2. Set it to play your entire music collection.
   3. Hit the “shuffle” button.
   4. Tell us the title of the next ten songs that show up (with their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. No skipping that Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It’s time for total musical honesty.

- - -

my list goes:

1.  it ends tonight - the all-american rejects
2.  close to you - the cranberries
3.  my humps - bep (haha.  i didn't even know that this is still in my library!!!)
4.  get over you - sophie ellis-bextor
5.  someone else's story (tinabebe!!!!!!!!!!!)
6.  score: that's that - graeme revell (score ost)
7.  across the universe - rufus wainwright
8.  les jours triste - amelie ost
9.  real - plumb
10.  false pretense - the red jumpsuit apparatus

so my rnb & pinoy rock didn't show up... probably in the next 10. :) 

now i'm tagging steve, raissa, rosa, christine, tina, julie, nad, lyne, raoul, kris, lj, janjan & whoever else wants to do this :)  just leave your answers or a link to your answers in the comment box :)

merry christmas folks!!!


Monday, December 1, 2008

christmas in up diliman

December 2, 2008 officially welcomes the Christmas season on campus. The traditional rites of lighting the campus will be at 6 p.m. at the Oblation plaza. It will be immediately followed by a concert entitled Tanglaw Sentenyal: Mga Tugtuging Pagdiriwang, featuring the UP Symphonic Band under the direction of Prof. Leopoldo Lopez, and the UP Symphonic Orchestra under the baton of Prof. Edna Marcil-Martinez and Prof. Rodney Ambat.

The concert repertoire includes classical celebratory music, music by Filipino composers, and Christmas carols where the audience will be invited to a community singing.

The concert is organized by the Office for Initiatives in Culture and the Arts (OICA) in cooperation with the College of Music.

Other activities are the following:

December 5, 5 p.m. Coral Building, Office of the Campus Architect: The opening of Designing Diliman, a centennial exhibition of the architecture, planning and landscape design of the UP Diliman (1939-2008). The exhibit showcases the campus as a veritable living laboratory of 20th century Philippine architectural styles and urbanist tendencies, with the exhibition locating the constituent structures within the contexts of shifting social environments, from colonial to national, from national to global.

The exhibit is organized by the College of Architecture Foundation for the Built Environment, Office of the Campus Architect, and OICA.

December 9, 5 p.m. University Theater: Karolfest,  a choral competition featuring various student choirs organized by OICA, Office of the Vice Chancellor for Student Affairs, and the University Student Council (USC).

December 15, 3 p.m. and 7 p.m. University Theater: Hagikhikan 2008: UP Diliman Faculty Follies, a variety show featuring members of the University faculty showcasing their talents in acting, dancing, singing and entertainment.

December 16: Bisita Kultura, an annual project of OICA bringing musical performances to selected areas on campus:

10 a.m. Melchor Hall steps (performer/s, to be announced)

3 p.m. Gonzalez Hall steps, featuring the UP Woodwind Quintet

5 p.m. Palma Hall steps, featuring the UP Brass Quintet

December 17, 4 p.m. Academic Oval: The Centennial Lantern Parade.


(from the diliman website)

live a.i.d.s. silver (the UP centennial edition)



i was with my co-workers (all UP alumni) last saturday night and as my title reads, yes, we watched up samaskom's live a.i.d.s. at the up theater. 

it was only the 2nd time in my life that i got to watch this annual show at diliman, and i was soooo effin' proud of the samaskomers that night.  mahaba yung show.  it started at 7:30pm, had a 10-minute break around 9:30, and natapos ang cast call 11:20.   but in all fairness, the dragging moments were few and far between.  kumbaga, it was a roller coaster ride from the appearance of michelle obombshell until the final lines of jeff salonga & myron's "under the lagoon" (that's my sequence title, not theirs).  mahahaba yung segments, but overall, the show was really worth the 4-hour stay at the theater.  super sulit.

as an alumna, watching this edition of live a.i.d.s. makes me proud to be a UP-ian all over again.  because it's the UP centennial, they squeezed in everything they could that's UP Diliman-ish through & through:  there was an oblation run (yes. totoo. true-la-la.).  they had a real oblation (in all his naked glory, with the fig leaf, but of course).  they talked about isaw, banana cue, sampaguita & fish balls, manong ice cream, sunken garden, jogging (and finding a lovelife while jogging).  and they drove a REAL UP IKOT JEEP on stage. 

i mean, super-duper-mega-over production ang nangyari, and i couldn't help but be in awe of all samaskomers i know, both residents and alumni.  ang galeeeeeng.

i missed the e-heads concert but i am uber glad i didn't miss watching live a.i.d.s. this year.  sa mga alumni na hindi nakanood, you missed a great show.  (oo, may connection ang eheads and live a.i.d.s., kasi kung tunay palaban makabayan kang UP istyudent, maka-eheads ka AND alam mo ang tradisyong live a.i.d.s.)

(as an aside, i TOTALLY have no regrets about not attending the up law alumni homecoming night... which was held at the quezon amphitheater, just right across the up theater. hahaha. kebs ko kung nagpatayo sila ng malalaking tent.  saka na ko pupunta, pag matanda na ko.  hehehehe.)


Friday, November 28, 2008

happiness is...



... seeing rauf smile when he wakes up in the mornings.  and seeing him give me a huge smile when i get home from work at night.

... rauf wrapping his chubby arms around my neck when he's about to sleep, and feeling his soft hair on my cheek as i lull him to sleep.

... a tall steaming cup of starbucks white chocolate mocha.

... having downtime to surf the net and click (and read. and type.) my heart away.

... finding "lost" games on storm (my laptop) and playing chocolatier all over again.

... having friends who understand the insanity of who i am, and who stay in touch even if i rarely have time to hang out with them anymore.

... bumping into friends while at the mall.  (feeling ko lahat ng kakilala kong taga-UP na nawawala, nakikita ko sa trinoma. hehe.)

... getting those work bonuses that allow me to pay off my yearly debts.

... knowing that i will never, ever be really alone because i am blessed with rauf, my family and lots and lots and lots of friends.

thank you, God!!!




Wednesday, November 19, 2008

in sickness & in health



i blogged about rauf being a real trooper despite his nasty cold and cough last week.  he WAS a trooper, up until he ran a fever and we decided to bring him to the st.lukes ER to undergo analysis & work-up. 

since i sincerely believe (and this has been proven N number of times before) that my son is not stupid, lo and behold, he turned into a feisty fighter upon entering the portals of the ER. 

he clung on to me/lola when the nurse was taking his temp. he refused to be weighed. he didn't wanna be laid on his ER cot. he fought the nurse tooth & nail when the nebulizer mask was still 6 inches away from his face.  he squirmed & gyrated when laid on the xray table, it took a male technician (the female gave up) & me to pin him just enough for his chest to be photoed.  he flicked his wrist at the right (for him.  wrong for the resident. haha.) time TWICE on EACH hand when the resident was inserting his IV on his hand/s.  and it took SIX people (me, 2 nurses, 2 interns & 1 resident) to finally insert the IV needle on his left foot.

rauf was a fighter through and through.  and despite his mommy's pain at seeing her son having to go through all those, she had to be a fighter too.

my son the fighter is also a mover.  he loves moving from one end of the bed to the other, and i'm sure if he were put on the floor, he would move from one end of a room to another room, or even to another house. hehe.  so imagine his frustration when he couldn't even turn over or crawl just 3 paces.  his IV got in the way.  he would scream and shout and cry and kick just to prove to all & sundry that he was one mad little boy.  when his IV was finally removed on the day of his discharge, his face lit up like sunshine... he turned over and crawled to his heart's delight.  my heart just melted.

three days, numerous nebulizations, lots of IV meds and tens of thousands of pesos later (oh yes, i had to mention that. hehe.), my son was finally discharged from his kiddieland room (they call the pediatric wing in st.lukes kiddieland. cute.).  i couldn't be happier.  my son was well!  the imp is baaaaack!!!

i hope and pray this doesn't happen again anytime soon.  or ever.  babies are meant to be happy & smiling & playful & active, not irritable & mad & fussy & terrified. 

to my son, be strong. be well.  mommy is sorry for giving you bad genes like being prone to allergies and asthma (and that's just the tip of the iceberg).  but mommy knows you'll always be a fighter.  and she'll make sure you won't ever face any opponent alone. 

to all mommies & daddies out there, the weather isn't helping much and there's been numerous viruses (virii???) flying around.  don't bring your babies to public places full of people.  and it won't hurt to have everyone in your house who's sniffling to wear a mask.  better safe than sorry.

- - -

super duper thanks to Dra. Teresita Narciso, pediatrician-pulmonologist!!!  she was sooo great with rauf!  her clinics are at MAB-516 st. lukes medical center (T/Th 9-12) and at patient first, mercury drug building, glorietta (forgot the days, but she's there 1-4).

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

ramblings



i was uber tired monday night after standing/sitting/walking around the whole day around the north wing lobby of the house supervising and overseeing the elections for the next employee reps to the admin boards.  but it was fun...  we had a lot of good feedback because (1) everyone was envious of our shirts (pics to follow), (2) the voting started early & we extended voting hours pa, (3) the WHOLE electoral board, though not required to be there the whole day, was at the polling place from the opening of the voting until the declaration of winners.  the camaraderie we have built was really evident that day.  thanks to all the dedicated members of the board!  super proud of all of us!!!

- - -

rauf is sick again.  i blame it on the weather.  but he enjoys being nebulized.  his curious eyes peer at the smoke coming from the nebulizer & he's attracted to the shiny green see-through mask.  he may be sick, but he sure is one happy, good-natured baby!

- - -

first anniv today of the congress bombing.  rest in peace, maan!

- - -

just SIXTEEN stickers needed for this year's starbucks planner! and there's one in RED!!! wahooooo! :)



Wednesday, November 5, 2008

adrienne-ish



nights in rodanthe wasn't a great film.  in fact, the reviews call it a sleeper. 

but the plot got me all wound up.  because i could relate to adrienne.  because i could feel every push and pull of the story revolving around her and her life.

sigh.



Sunday, November 2, 2008

the fun seminar blog



last tuesday to thursday, i found myself at punta de fabian, baras, rizal, attending a seminar on wto, globalization and international trade law.  when my brain cells permit, i will blog about my personal take on the philippines' (inutile?) efforts at playing on the international trade arena.  since i had fun, let me just blog about that... haha.

1.  for a motley crew of congress technical people, we all had a blast!!! never mind that we only had 2 nights of bonding... errrr, drinking... but let me say that when busy people get together and take advantage of a respite, well, they do take advantage.  haha. 

2.  apparently, i do have that inner madonna in me.  i remember i swooned (yes, i swooooooned) when i saw madonna with her kids at LAX, but i never realized that i still know the lyrics of "like a virgin" almost by heart.

3.  i wonder if law school or lawyering is the culprit, but the awards for videoke kings and queens for the solidary night would definitely go to the lawyers in the crew.  hats off to J.S. for the never-ending playlist, which included GLAMOROUS (my gulay, alam ba ng frat mo na alam mo kantahin yun???).

4.  when you're at a normal videoke party, you would sometimes feel the age-gap among the crew, which would actually reflect on their choice of songs.  but this time around, that wasn't the case.  imagine a 52-year old momma singing britney spears... though after the song, she screamed:  buti nalang nakikinig ako sa anak ko!!!! (hehehe)

5.  52 year old guy, barely drinking, gets egged to sing a song.  he picks a beatles song which everybody knows.  then he walks toward a group of girls, and we all think he's going to sing to one of the seminar lecturers on a gesture of goodwill.  but NO.  he picks a co-participant, drags her to the front, and doesn't let go of her hand until the song finishes.  then he steals a peck on her cheek.  now that's guts... with age. :)

oh well...  now i can't wait for the follow up seminar.  hehehe :)


Monday, October 27, 2008

the sis of a champ :)



"Dad, sorry I just got to charge my phone.  We're okay here.  By the way, champions kami!"
-from my bro, bullet

--------

yahoooooo!!!!!  the funny thing about bullet is that sometimes, he's too dead-ma about a lot of things. 

like the day before he left, i asked him, "have you packed?"  he answered, "no, tomorrow morning nalang.  afternoon pa man my flight."

then when we were on the way to the airport, i told him, "this is your first trip abroad.  the immigration officer in HK will ask you what you plan to do in their country.  of course you'll say you're an athlete... that you're gonna play.  What's the name of the tournament?"  his reply, "shucks, 'te, i forgot.  it's in my email..."  wahahahahaha!!!! :)

so he left pinas without knowing the real, true name of the ultimate disc tournament he was gonna play in.  dutiful ate that i am, i googled ultimate disc hongkong and found the site of the hongkong ultimate players association, which was hosting the Enter the Dragon 2008 Pan-Asia Ultimate Tournament.  since the dates & schedules of the event matched bullet's kwento, i presumed that that was it.

and now, i'm googling like crazy, looking for any news about bullet's CLAIM of capturing the championship... but heck, i don't care if it doesn't make the news (though it should...). 

i'm mighty darn proud of my bro right now... and had it not been for an out-of-town seminar i'll be attending starting tomorrow, i would go to T3 and wave that philippine flag like crazy when his plane comes in tomorrow, our big warm welcome just for him.  since i can't make it, then this blog will do for now :)

congrats bullet!!!!! mwa!


some pics of bullet posted HERE :)


Friday, October 24, 2008

T3 (this one's for you too, bullet)



the first time i was in T3, we still called it the piatco terminal.  four years ago, i was there with arlene to check out the spanking new waiting-to-be-opened-and-used terminal...  we were there upon the invitation of mean, the PR manager of piatco.  i was so proud that we would finally have an airport terminal we could be proud of!

then today, we went there to see off my brother, bullet, who left for hongkong to compete at the pan-asia ultimate challenge.  (i heard he's one of the best players of ultimate disc in UP... haven't seen him play though.  but of course, i don't need proof!!! hahaha)

it was such a personal sense of fulfillment that i felt when we were walking around... because even if the operations still leave much to be desired, i sure as hell am mighty proud that we are finally using T3.  naia is just tooooo old, and the centennial terminal is tooooo small.  (i'd rather not talk about the old domestic terminal, though my childhood summers would usually find me there, shuttling back and forth between manila & tacloban)  T3 is spanking shiny, modern & "bright"... an airport terminal we can definitely be proud of.

so i got to thinking... bullet's first trip abroad, and he would be competing in a sport he loves with all his heart, and he would be leaving the philippines through/via a shiny, new, modern edifice...  well, that bodes well for his trip, i guess :)

good luck, 'let!!! :)  and have fun there...


Sunday, October 19, 2008

present history




"...You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that - everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer..."

-excerpt from Virginia Woolf's letter to Leonard Woolf.  I saw this on the latest blog of a dear friend, and I couldn't resist.  I didn't even ask permission to repost... Thanks Virginia and friend :)



the smell of freedom?




Its not worth anything more than this at all
I live as I choose or I will not live at all

So return to where youve come from
Return to where you dwell
Because harassment's not my forte
But you do it very well

I'm free to decide, Im free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all
I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all (at all, at all)

You must have nothing more with your mind to do
...

So to hell with what you're thinking
And to hell with your narrow mind
You're so distracted from the real thing
You should leave your life behind (behind)

I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all
I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all (at all, at all)

I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all (at all, at all)

At all, at all, at all

-Free to Decide, The Cranberries


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

circles



you've got me goin' around
going around in circles all the time
falling around like leaves in summertime
i don't know what goes on in my mind
going around in circles
-a song from my high school era (and i can't remember by whom)


pfffffffft.  i want to stop thinking.  for now.



Sunday, October 12, 2008

carpe diem-ing



It's all very well to say you fool it's now or never
I could be choosing
No choices whatsoever

I could be
In someone else's story
In someone else's life
And he could be in mine
I don't see
A reason to be lonely
I should take my chances
Further down the line

-from Chess, the musical
(and shamelessly copied from tina's post.  tenchu, tina!)


i am in deep sh*t and i can't care less. 

this happens everytime we see each other, and this is the first time we've really talked about it.  aminan na kung aminan.  life is short.  we won't stay young forever.  apparently, it wasn't just me.  and it has never been just physical. (though we haven't tried that too.)  with my baby and all, i thought this time would be different.  it wasn't. 

it's as if the skies have opened up, and i can literally see the silver lining.  or at least a hint of it. 

i know i will forever regret it if i don't even give this a chance.  except that i will need to move mountains AND rock a few boats to just even try. 

but i/we will try. 

God help me.



Wednesday, October 8, 2008

nakakatakot



dati, congressman lang naman ang target ng mga mamamatay tao.  pero mukhang hindi na ngayon.  pati pala staff, pwede na targetin. 

kilala ko si robert dahil pina-akyat ako nun ni may, director ng cluster namin, sa office ni cong. waykurat.  mid-2006 ito, kakapasa ko lang ng bar.  kasi may bakante sa committee on mindanao affairs.  sabi niya, kausapin ko ang mga tao sa opisina ni cong. waykurat, kasi sya yung chairman ng komite.  magpakilala ako, chuvaloo.  ako naman si masunurin, akyat naman.  pakilala, chika-chika.

mabait si robert.  hindi kami close, pero hindi ka-plastikan ang mga sinabi nya sa kin nung araw na una kaming nagkita.  malamang kasi alam niya na matagal na ako sa congress --- kilala nya naman daw ako sa mukha.  (ako, tumango, pero hindi ko talaga sya maalala.)  may mga problema sa komite nung panahon na yun, baka daw ako ang makatulong sa kanila.  eklavu-chenes.  ang ending:  siya din ang nagpakilala sa kin kay cong. waykurat.  at ang totoong ending:  nakuha ko yung posisyon.  salamat sa tulong, robert.

hindi ko alam kung bakit nangyari kay robert ang nangyari kanina.  maraming chismis... pero dahil chismis, hindi natin alam kung ano yung totoo. 

basta ako, alam ko, tunay na tao si robert.  marunong makipag-usap.  hindi nagbibitiw ng pangakong hindi natutupad.  yan ang pagkakilala ko sa kanya.  at ngayon, paalam at pasasalamat na lang ang pwede kong isulat.  dahil wala na siya.

nakakatakot ang nangyari kay robert... dahil kilala ko siya.  dahil staff din ako dati. 

ang pinakanakakatakot na naranasan ko nung staff ako, yung pag-uwi ko, bukas yung pintuan ng apartment ko, naka-kalat lahat ng gamit, pero walang nawala.  yung alam mo na may hinahanap lang.  yung alam mo na hindi pera ang kailangan.  (hindi ko ito pina-blotter, dahil hindi ko pwedeng sabihin kung ano yung suspetsa kong hinahanap nila.  tama sila... inuwi ko yung dokumentong iyon.  pero binalik ko rin sa opisina nung araw din na yun.  kumbaga, na-late sila.  buti nalang.)

hindi ko naisip ng mga panahon na yun na pwede rin palang hindi lang breaking-and-entering ang pinaka-malalang mangyari sa kin.  dahil pwede palang ipatumba din ako, kung na-timing na lumaki yung isyu nung panahon na yun. 

buti nalang okay ako.  pero nakakalungkot at nakakatakot na wala na si robert.  na hindi sya okay.  na meron tayong hindi alam, na alam niya, na yun ang rason kung bakit nangyari sa kanya yun.

nakakatakot talaga.



Wednesday, October 1, 2008

6 months of motherhood




rauf is six months old today and i endlessly thank God for giving me the greatest blessing i have ever received.

when i look at him, i constantly think that i don't really deserve to be a mom.  many of you know that i was quite apprehensive about his coming.  as is natural, i was worried that i wouldn't be up to par.  i have been an OC-perfectionist for as long as i can remember, and i knew for sure that i wasn't fully-equipped and prepared for motherhood.

six months into mothering rauf, i now know that being a mommy is a continuous learning experience.  probably the greatest learning experience i will ever undergo... and this is for a lifetime.  i'd like to think that rauf & i are growing together.  slowly, surely, and reaching a point where he knows that i'm his mom, and i accept that i can never do everything perfectly when it comes to being a mommy.  but we are both trying to level things off in the best way possible. 

his daddy loves us and is always there for us, but at the end of the day, it's just me and rauf at home.  lola mommy (my mom) is a sneeze away, but i know that rauf is my responsibility.  at night, when he fidgets and shows signs that he's getting sleepy, it's just the two of us, and these are the moments i cherish the most... 

just me and him... rauf and i, the bouncing, fidgety little ball, errr, boy and the mommy who is trying to get most things right.




Saturday, September 20, 2008

the itch to travel

Dear Multiply and real-life friends -

I have just added another job (but this is non-paying) on my career list:  website column writer. (Is that the actual title?  whatever... hehehe...)  I'm super excited about this new adventure, and I hope we can go places together as I write about sights, sounds and the ins & outs of travelling.  Below is my first article for World Class Filipino.

The site is on its beta-stage, but if you join now, we can grow together :) 

Join and be proud to be a noy-pi! :)

-Apryll

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http://www.worldclassfilipino.com/sections/wc-article/content/34/really-itchy-toes-and-feet

When Reginn invited me to write for worldclassfilipino, I graciously accepted.  I am not a professional travel writer, nor am I a professional traveller (though I think some of my friends would disagree).  But I've always wanted to write about travel and travelling... where to go, what to see, where to stay... the stuff most travel sites are made of, except that the articles would be written from my perspective, from my personal experience.

For me, travelling is not a time to rest and take a leisurely vacation, but a chance for me to immerse myself in a new place, discover a new culture, try out a new language, interact with new people... and have my pictures taken in front of monuments, parks, museums, building facades and what-have-you that I had only previously read about in books or had only seen on TV.

The truth is, I love to travel on a budget.  I have even travelled without a budget.  I get thrilled about planning trips.  I am an eager tourist who loves doing "the touristy thing" - trying to cram all the must-sees in the X number of days on my itinerary, but only after I've spent some time imbibing the sights, smells and sounds of a new place, or a new city.  I itch to travel - with or without money, with or without a companion.

I hope we get to travel together - YOU and me - as I tell you about the places I've been to, or want to go to, and YOU as you share with me where you want to go or what you want to learn about more.

Now let's get those itchy feet walking... and let the journey begin!




Friday, September 5, 2008

THAT time of the year



yeah... THAT.  the bar exams... two days to go until the beginning of the real "september" for all bar examinees.

as early as the 2nd week of august, i was busy texting my friends who are taking the bar this year to wish them luck.  most of them told me they were barely done.  some said they were starting to accept the reality that they can never be really done.  i told them the truth:  i didn't finish my first reading.  i studied my ass off in pre-week.  and if i made it, i'm sure they'll make it too.

taking the bar exams is all a matter of TRYING to cram and understand everything you think you need to know, and WRITING down everything you know, never mind if what you know does not answer the question that is being asked. 

and afterwards, you must pray and pray to high heavens that the examiner/checker (they're not necessarily one & the same person) will appreciate the fact that you really, really, really TRIED.  it worked for me.  i'm sure it would work for others too. :)

so if you have friends and family who are taking the bar exams this year, i wish them ALL THE LUCK i can channel.  i have been doing barops since 1999, and i will do it again this year.  if you need the help of AnWaray BarOps, do PM or text me.

see you at Taft!


feeling guilty



as a law intern for the UP Office of Legal Aid in my last year in law school, we handled actual cases for indigent clients.  in principle, we had to do everything under the supervision and control of a supervising lawyer. in principle.

in fact, OLA intern training begins with memorizing your most important speaking part:  Good morning/afternoon, your Honor.  Law Intern _____ appearing for the prosecution/defense, under the control and supervision of my supervising lawyer, Atty. ____.

during my OLA stint, i had to attend hearings and represent OLA clients in court aside from filing numerous pleadings.  from what i remember, i had approximately 2 appearances at the QC RTC (robbery), 4 appearances, including 2 cross-examinations at the Caloocan RTC (murder), 2 appearances at the NLRC, and 2 appearances at the Antipolo MTC (ejectment). 

of the approximately 10 court appearances i made, i was accompanied by a supervising lawyer only TWICE. my best friend, arlene, who was then reviewing for the bar, accompanied me on my first court appearance, and acted as my SL. (haha.) then i had a hearing in QC one morning and i saw SL Lim who was accompanying another intern who was under his team, and i asked him to just make an appearance with me since the fiscal had questioned the absence of my SL during the previous hearing.  he talked to the fiscal, made an appearance, and left me to fend for myself.

in short, i never had my actual SL present in any of my court appearances.

then last friday, dad woke me up.  he thrust a folder at me and told me to make a special appearance for him and request for the resetting of his case.  i didn't want to (i'm personally against resetting, especially when the resetting has been made a number of times already), but i had no choice as he had already left the house.  i looked at the file.  the other party was represented by OLA. hmmm. i knew that any motion for resetting would definitely be opposed.  i was apprehensive... if the hearing would push through, i was dirt.  i didn't know sh*t about the case.

fast forward to 2pm (i was late for the first call...) i looked for the law intern (easy to spot who) and approached him- - -

me:  hi, alumna ako.  batch 2005.  evening.  (smile, smile.) inform lang kita na magpapa-reset ako...
law intern (LI): hi.  naku, mag-o-oppose ako.  ilang beses na 'to di natutuloy.
me:  sorry ha. hindi ko alam yung case na 'to.  special appearance lang ako... anong year ka pumasok?
LI: nagka-abot pa tayo... but i don't remember you. (yep, maangas sya.)
me:  i don't remember you too.  day ka kasi... anyway, pa-reset ako.  tingnan nalang natin kung i-grant.

then the case was called - - -

me:  Special appearance, your Honor. (blah-blah)  I would like to request for a re-setting of the case since... (blah-blah.)
LI:  We oppose the motion, your Honor, (blah-blah-blah)
me:  Your Honor, where is the Supervising Lawyer of counsel?  As a former law intern myself, I know that it is necessary that an SL be present at all appearances of an intern, especially considering that we are appearing before the RTC.
LI:  This is only a preliminary conference.  I can appear without an SL.
me:  I beg to disagree.  The Student Practice Rule is clear.  An SL must be present to supervise the intern.
(blah-blah-blah...)
ang ending:  the motion for resetting was granted.

i know i was just doing what i had to do.  and everything i said was valid.  and i just had to somehow attack his lack-of-an-SL because he was not so nice to me (hello!  pa-graduate ka pa lang, tapos na ako!!!)...

but until now, i feel so guilty about it.  sigh. 



Friday, August 29, 2008

bebs & the thank you girls



bebs is a friend from circa 2000.  i met him through anna, who was then the girlfriend of jolaz, a classmate from law school.  i think he was in a semi-quarter life crisis then and was in manila to look for work.  when my former boss suddenly became speaker of the house in january 2001, i told him to apply as we were suddenly in dire need of staff.  eventually, we became co-workers until the time when i moved to the committee affairs department, and he to the journal service.  we were all then permanent/organic employees of the house.

i thought everything was going well when i heard that bebs was resigning, as he had decided to go to film school in UP. 

his decision got me worried:  he could try fixing his class schedules to make sure he would keep his congress job naman.  [to those of you who are not aware of the "perks" of a congress job, just imagine that almost all government employees envy us for those perks.  (which is why until now, i work there, among other reasons...)]  how would he pay for his tuition?  how would he live?  i asked him if he was sure about his decision.  he told me that he had decided to focus on film school.  he told me that this was what he really wanted.  he told me he was ready to face the consequences of a job-less life as long as got the chance to chase his dream of becoming a film director.  so he left.

i was still in law school then and would see him around campus sometimes.  during election years, we would call him for the usual campaign assistance we continue to give our former boss.  but aside from those chance & election encounters, i never got the chance to hang out with bebs again... he had moved on to his film school friends, he had stayed friends with a pseudo-cousin-in-law whom i am not in good terms with, and anna had moved to london.  the connection was semi-lost.

yet i continued to monitor his progress through school and in the film industry.  i knew there were times when he barely had any money left to see him through.  i heard from my sister that he was struggling to finish his thesis since he had difficulty looking for funding.  all i could think was:  he gave up a stable job to follow his dreams no matter what the consequences.

then the good news started pouring in.  bebs had made it through school.  he was starting to do little stuff in the industry.  he was part of the "foster child" team.  i watched "batanes" and saw his name on the credits.  i read a blog and found out that he co-wrote "daybreak."

i made sure i would support bebs on the premiere night of his film.  i rallied our core group in congress to come with me.  i hadn't seen him in years, and i wanted him to know that despite the distance and non-communication, i was still his friend.  and when i saw him that night, i knew he appreciated our presence.  he was tense, kind of scared, but still very excited.  he was cracking jokes and greeting everyone, but he would hug us & squeeze our hands time & again.

the premiere was a resounding success.  it was well-attended, with the requisite press people and celebrities that make a show complete.  the film was GREAT!  it was funny, the lines were witty, and it had a heart.  (i will not write about the film too much, as you now know how biased i am.  but believe me, it's really good.) 

i was, and am, very proud of bebs.  he doesn't know this, but i envy bebs for being brave enough to give up almost-everything and follow his heart.  and now he has come full circle.  still struggling, but definitely already "almost-there."

and now i memorialize my thoughts that night:  what if he had chosen to stay in congress?  then there wouldn't be a director/filmmaker in direk charliebebs gohetia. 

that would, indeed, have been a shame.

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do go and watch the film.  "the thank you girls" is scheduled to be shown at robinson's indiesine on the last week of september.  for screening schedules, local and international, please visit the website, www.thethankyougirls.com.  cheers!



Wednesday, August 27, 2008

TYG world premiere

To those of you who don't have plans for tonight, do check out my friend, bebs', indie film ---

The Thank You Girls
World Premiere
28 August 2008
7pm
UP Film Center
UP Diliman

Directed by Charliebebs Gohetia


Monday, August 18, 2008

how he has grown!

when he was only
3 weeks old





















now at 4.5 months!























well, to tell you the truth, rauf can only stay on his rocker/swing for a maximum of 15 minutes.  kelangan pa yan na may music from the rocker AND he has to see someone watching over him.  otherwise, you won't see that cute little smile you see there... hehe.


Tuesday, July 22, 2008

enlighten me



Tobias v Abalos, 239 SCRA 106 
The Constitution clearly provides that the House of Representatives shall be composed of not more than two hundred fifty members, unless otherwise fixed by law.  The inescapable import of the latter clause is that the present composition of Congress may be increased if Congress itself so mandates through a legislative enactment


Mariano v COMELEC, 242 SCRA 211

The Constitution clearly provides that Congress shall be composed of not more than two hundred fifty (250) members, unless otherwise fixed by law.  As thus worded, the Constitution did not preclude Congress from increasing its membership by passing a law, other than a general reapportionment law.

and now, this:

Sema v COMELEC and Dilangalen (G.R. No. 177597, 16 July 2008)

The Constitution empowered Congress to create or reapportion legislative districts, not the regional assemblies.  Section 3 of the Ordinance to the Constitution which states, “[A]ny province that may hereafter be created x x x shall be entitled in the immediately following election to at least one Member,” refers to a province created by Congress itself through a national law. The reason is that the creation of a province increases the actual membership of the House of Representatives, an increase that only Congress can decide.  Incidentally, in the present 14th Congress, there are 219 district representatives out of the maximum 250 seats in the House of Representatives.  Since party-list members shall constitute 20 percent of total membership of the House, there should at least be 50 party-list seats available in every election in case 50 party-list candidates are proclaimed winners. This leaves only 200 seats for district representatives, much less than the 219 incumbent district representatives.   Thus, there is a need now for Congress to increase by law the allowable membership of the House, even before Congress can create new provinces



Tuesday, June 3, 2008

obama the victor!

Obama clinches nomination; Clinton seeks VP spot

By TOM RAUM and NEDRA PICKLER, Associated Press Writers 7 minutes ago

ST. PAUL, Minn. - Cheered by a roaring crowd, Sen. Barack Obama of Illinois laid claim to the Democratic presidential nomination Tuesday night, taking a historic step toward his once-improbable goal of becoming the nation's first black president. Hillary Rodham Clinton maneuvered for the vice presidential spot on his fall ticket without conceding her own defeat.

"America, this is our moment," the 46-year-old senator and one-time community organizer said in his first appearance as the Democratic nominee-in-waiting. "This is our time. Our time to turn the page on the policies of the past."

Clinton praised Obama warmly in an appearance before supporters in New York, although she neither acknowledged his victory in their grueling marathon nor offered a concession of any sort.

Instead, she said she was committed to a unified party, and said she would spend the next few days determining "how to move forward with the best interests of our country and our party guiding my way."

Obama's victory set up a five-month campaign with Republican Sen. John McCain of Arizona, a race between a first-term Senate opponent of the Iraq War and a 71-year-old Vietnam prisoner of war and staunch supporter of the current U.S. military mission.

And both men seemed eager to begin.

McCain spoke first, in New Orleans, and he accused his younger rival of voting "to deny funds to the soldiers who have done a brilliant and brave job" in Iraq." Americans, he added, should be concerned about the judgment of a presidential candidate who has not traveled to Iraq yet "says he's ready to talk, in person and without conditions, with tyrants from Havana to Pyongyang."

McCain agreed with Obama that the presidential race would focus on change. "But the choice is between the right change and the wrong change, between going forward and going backward," he said.

Obama responded quickly, pausing in his own speech long enough to praise Clinton for "her strength, her courage and her commitment to the causes that brought us here tonight."

As for his general election rival, he said, "It's not change when John McCain decided to stand with George Bush 95 percent of the time, as he did in the Senate last year. It's not change when he offers four more years of Bush economic policies that have failed to create well-paying jobs. ... And it's not change when he promises to continue a policy in Iraq that asks everything of our brave young men and women in uniform and nothing of Iraqi politicians."

In a symbolic move, Obama spoke in the same hall where McCain will accept the Republican nomination at his party's convention in September. Campaign officials, citing the local fire marshal, put the crowd at 17,000 inside the eXcel Energy Center, plus another 15,000 outside.

McCain addressed a smaller crowd by design, an estimated 600 in his audience and another 600 outside.

One campaign began as another was ending.

Clinton won South Dakota on the final night of the primary season; Obama took Montana.

He later called Clinton to congratulate her on her victory. When she called back, Obama reiterated his offer to sit down at a time convenient for her, according to his spokesman, Robert Gibbs. He said there were no plans for a meeting on Wednesday.

Only 31 delegates were at stake in the two states on the night's ballot, the final few among the thousands that once drew Obama, Clinton and six other Democratic candidates into the campaign to replace Bush and become the nation's 44th president.

Obama sealed his nomination, according to The Associated Press tally, based on primary elections, state Democratic caucuses and support from party "superdelegates." It takes 2,118 delegates to clinch the nomination at the convention in Denver this summer, and Obama had 2,154 by the AP count.

There were more on the way, including Sen. Ben Cardin of Maryland, whom party officials said would make an endorsement on Wednesday.

Additionally, party leaders readied a statement urging uncommitted superdelegates in Congress and among the ranks of governors to state their preference by Friday. Several officials said that while they wanted to unify the party quickly, they were also determined not to appear to push Clinton out of the race, particularly since she will be returning to the Senate once her presidential bid is over.

Obama, a first-term senator who was virtually unknown on the national stage four years ago, defeated Clinton, the former first lady and one-time campaign front-runner, in a 17-month marathon for the Democratic nomination.

His victory had been widely assumed for weeks. But Clinton's declaration of interest in becoming his ticketmate was wholly unexpected.

She expressed it in a conference call with her state's congressional delegation after Rep. Nydia Velazquez, predicted Obama would have great difficulty winning the support of Hispanics and other voting blocs unless the former first lady was on the ticket.

"I am open to it" if it would help the party's prospects in November, Clinton replied, according to participants who spoke on condition of anonymity because the call was private.

Clinton's comments raised anew the prospect of what many Democrats have called a "Dream Ticket" that would put a black man and a woman on the same ballot, but Obama's aides were noncommittal. "We're not in the presidential phase here. We're going to close out the nominating fight and then we'll consider that," David Axelrod, Obama's top strategist, told reporters aboard the candidate's plane en route to Minnesota.

McCain's criticism of Obama referred to a vote last year in which the Illinois senator came out against legislation paying for the Iraq war because it did not include a timetable for withdrawing troops. At the time, Obama said the funding would give President Bush "a blank check to continue down this same, disastrous path."

Obama previously had opposed a deadline for troop withdrawal, but shifted position under pressure from the Democratic Party's liberal wing as he maneuvered for support in advance of the primaries.

Bill Burton, a spokesman for Obama, responded tartly. "While John McCain has a record of occasional independence from his party in the past, last year he chose to embrace 95% of George Bush's agenda, including his failed economic policies and his failed policy in Iraq. No matter how hard he tries to spin it otherwise, that kind of record is simply not the change the American people are looking for or deserve."

The young Illinois senator's success amounted to a victory of hope over experience, earned across an enervating 56 primaries and caucuses that tested the political skills and human endurance of all involved.

Obama stood for change. Clinton was the candidate of experience, ready, she said, to serve in the Oval Office from Day One.

Together, they drew record turnouts in primary after primary — more than 34 million voters in all, independents and Republicans as well as Democrats.

Yet the race between a black man and a woman exposed deep racial and gender divisions within the party.

Obama drew strength from blacks, and from the younger, more liberal and wealthier voters in many states. Clinton was preferred by older, more downscale voters, and women, of course.

Personality issues rose and receded through the campaign:

Clinton's husband, the former president, campaigned tirelessly for her but sometimes became an issue himself, to her detriment.

And Obama struggled to minimize the damage caused by the incendiary rhetoric of his former pastor, the Rev. Jeremiah Wright, an issue likely to be raised anew by Republicans in the fall campaign.

Obama's triumph was fashioned on prodigious fundraising, meticulous organizing and his theme of change aimed at an electorate opposed to the Iraq war and worried about the economy — all harnessed to his own gifts as an inspirational speaker.

With her husband's two White House terms as a backdrop, Clinton campaigned for months as the candidate of experience, a former first lady and second-term senator ready to be commander in chief.

But after a year on the campaign trail, Obama won the kickoff Iowa caucuses on Jan. 3, and the freshman senator became a political phenomenon.

"We came together as Democrats, as Republicans and independents, to stand up and say we are one nation, we are one people and our time for change has come," he said that night of victory in Des Moines.

As the strongest female presidential candidate in history, Clinton drew large, enthusiastic audiences. Yet Obama's were bigger. One audience, in Dallas, famously cheered when he blew his nose on stage; a crowd of 75,000 turned out in Portland, Ore., the weekend before the state's May 20 primary.

The former first lady countered Obama's Iowa victory with an upset five days later in New Hampshire that set the stage for a campaign marathon as competitive as any in the past generation.

"Over the last week I listened to you, and in the process I found my own voice," she told supporters who had saved her candidacy from an early demise.

In defeat, Obama's aides concluded they had committed a cardinal sin of New Hampshire politics, forsaking small, intimate events in favor of speeches to large audiences inviting them to ratify Iowa's choice.

It was not a mistake they made again — which helped explain Obama's later outings to bowling alleys, backyard basketball courts and American Legion halls in the heartland.

Clinton conceded nothing, memorably knocking back a shot of Crown Royal whiskey at a bar in Indiana, recalling that her grandfather had taught her to use a shotgun, and driving in a pickup to a gas station in South Bend, Ind., to emphasize her support for a summertime suspension of the federal gasoline tax.

As other rivals fell away in winter, Obama and Clinton traded victories on Super Tuesday, the Feb. 5 series of primaries and caucuses across 21 states and American Samoa that once seemed likely to settle the nomination.

But Clinton had a problem that Obama exploited, and he scored a coup she could not answer.

Pressed for cash, the former first lady ran noncompetitive campaigns in several Super Tuesday caucus states, allowing her rival to run up his delegate totals.

At the same time, Sen. Edward M. Kennedy, D-Mass., endorsed the young senator in terms that summoned memories of his slain brothers while seeking to turn the page on the Clinton era.

Merely by surviving Super Tuesday, Obama exceeded expectations. But he did more than survive, emerging with a lead in delegates that he never relinquished, and he proceeded to run off a string of 11 straight victories.

Clinton saved her candidacy once more with primary victories in Ohio and Texas on March 4, beginning a stretch in which she won in six of the next nine states on the calendar, as well as in Puerto Rico.

It was a strong run, providing glimpses of what might have been for the one-time front-runner.


Article posted from yahoo news

Sunday, May 11, 2008

the conspiracy of silence





all throughout my 6-year stay in UP Law, i was surrounded by close girlfriends who decided (either by choice or by chance) to have kids while in school.  they carried their pregnancy with ease and grace. 

in fact, one of my closest friends, at the height of her first pregnancy (she had 4 children all in all while in law) during our sophomore year, even had the audacity to correct judge salazar in our crim 2 class:
judge salazar:  mrs. perey, what are the elements of this crime?
lumen:  sir, it's miss perey.  (without batting an eyelash.  and she was 6 months round when this happened)

when it was time to give birth, they didn't even have to file for a leave of absence.  lumen's maximum "maternity leave" was 2 weeks, even after giving birth to twins.  lyne's too. 

yet never, NEVER, did i hear them tell me or anyone else how difficult it is to be a mom...

how praning you would be watching over your baby, scared of what would happen to him in his sleep. 

how exhausted you could become, lulling your baby to sleep and dozing off to sleep yourself, in the process. 

how your vocal chords would refuse to sing another lullaby. 

how your feet would refuse to be dragged to do another waltz.

i am not complaining.  i love rauf with all my heart.  but everyone out there should know that no matter how happy moms appear to be, EXHAUSTION is the name of the game.

and my game has barely begun.


happy mother's day to all!!!



Tuesday, April 15, 2008

quick everything

since march 31, it's been "quick everything" for me...

quick shortened pregnancy of just 35 weeks. (oh. except for the labor part. let's not go there...)

quick recovery from CS.  (was up & about in less than 12 hours.  i refused to use a bedpan after those agonizing hours in the delivery room!)

quick meals (at the start, it was due to loss of appetite.  now, it's just because there's no time.  why is it that when i start to sit down & eat, rauf fusses & then wakes up??? must it be because he was used to eating with me for 8 months?  hehehe...)

quick forays outside the house.  (okay. just once. when i went to st. luke's yesterday for my check-up.  couldn't resist NOT texting mommy to check up on rauf.  hehe.)

quick banyo time (no yaya yet, just mommy helping us out.  hence, it's me & rauf, one on one.)

quick weight loss (oh yessss!!! i am now at 118lbs, from my pre-delivery weight of 138lbs.  and only in two, yes two, weeks!)

and most of all,

quick internet time (hence, this very short blog.)

maybe in a month or so, i'll be getting the hang of things, be less obsessive-compulsive about rauf, and be more efficient in my time management.

otherwise, spontaneity is currently the name of the game :)

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

fast forward to motherhood




after almost 33 hours of being in bed no. 2 of the st. luke's delivery room, i gave birth last april 1 at 35 weeks.  had to go through a c-section because my cervix refused to fully dilate.  (duh... wasn't due for 5 more weeks!) 

seeing baby rauf (pronounced ra-OOF) makes everything worth all the moans, groans, sweat & tears.

BUT i swear i will not go through that harrowing experience ever again. 

(erase harrowing experience here lest i scare all my single female friends)

my baby is still being kept under close watch at the st. luke's nursery for infections and other complications he got due to prematurity.  but thank God he's strong enough not to need to be placed inside an isolette/incubator.  despite my own need for rest, i am prepping myself for the daily visits to the nursery to breastfeed him.

and so the path to motherhood has begun.  wish me luck.



Friday, March 14, 2008

help??!




i have been PM-ing (personal messaging) some online sellers about some stuff.  most of them reply to my posts/messages, but the problem lies with me.  after reading a reply, either I reply ASAP or leave the message & move on to other posts.

and now, now that i need some details, i can't find the PMs. 

where, oh where, in the realm of multiply & my site can i find old PMs???

seriously, i don't know where to find them...

thanks for any help  =) =) =)


Wednesday, March 12, 2008

the longest wait



soon...

you're coming in a few weeks, and i dare not hope you arrive earlier than expected.  but the waiting game is getting to me.  still, i will wait. 

take your own sweet time.  we will see each other.

soon.



Thursday, February 21, 2008

a statement from malcolm hall



A CALL FOR TRUTH AND ACCOUNTABILITY
(A Statement of Members of the UP Law Faculty and Students)
 
We are members of the faculty and students of the College of Law of the University of the Philippines. As lawyers, educators, students of the law and citizens, we applaud the courage of Mr. Jun Lozada, who has volunteered information at great risk to himself and to his family.

We also, by this collective statement, express our outrage and indignation at the official response to the recent revelations on the NBN-ZTE controversy. We call on the concerned public officers to do what is right.

Public Office is a Public Trust. This is the core principle of our republican and democratic nation. In the wake of the initial revelations of Mr. Jose De Venecia III, Chairperson Romulo Neri and the more recent revelations Engineer Jun Lozada, the silence and inaction of the President and the Ombudsman directly violate this core principle.

Under the Constitution, the Ombudsman is an independent Office—accountable to none save the people and the Constitution. It has the power to investigate on its own initiative, which power it has not effectively exercised. The current Ombudsman's dismal failure to investigate recent exposes involving Malacanang has created a perception that she is not independent. Her recent inhibition from investigating the NBN-ZTE deal is not sufficient and does not reassure. By simply remaining in office, she still has enough influence to ensure that the current investigation goes the way of the other major investigations—nowhere.

The President's own silence on this matter is totally unacceptable. The exposes have directly implicated her. The resources of government have been mobilized to suppress the truth—the Philippine National Police, the Aviation Security Command, and the Presidential Security Group have been implicated in detaining Jun Lozada without his consent; her former Chief of Staff and the current DENR Secretary have also been implicated; members of her official family, from the DENR Secretary, the Justice Secretary, the Press Secretary, the Cabinet Secretary have all diverted time and effort to protect her and her husband. Instead of adopting a policy of full disclosure, she has allowed her former NEDA Director General and acting CHED Chairperson to keep a selective silence—when summoned by the Senate but not by Malacanang. Her Justice Secretary has indicated that a parallel investigation will focus on the key witness rather than on the possible crimes committed by those whom Mr. Lozada has named.

We now make the following calls:

First, for those in government who have been implicated by key witnesses, as a minimum response, to take a leave of absence until the controversy is resolved.

For the President and the Ombudsman, while we have asked, at the minimum, for them to take a leave of absence, we say also: resignation is always an option.

Second, for the Department of Justice to immediately terminate its investigation which, on its face, appears irregular considering that there has been no complaint filed with the Department.

Third, for those that the Constitution has vested with mandate and jurisdiction, such as the Ombudsman's Office and the Office of the Special Prosecutor, to charge and prosecute those responsible.

Fourth, for all UP ALUMNI, specially those who have graduated from the College of Law, to be faithful to the interests of our people. For those privileged to have power by appointment or election, to exercise their discretion wisely and not serve the whim or greed of others. For those who have knowledge of what is legally or morally wrong, to be courageous enough to step forward and allow justice to be served. Our patience has been tested during the past years.

Once again, we are faced with yet another scandal involving allegations of corruption at the highest levels of power. We choose not to turn a blind eye or a deaf ear, but to be active, vigilant and responsible in demanding accountability from our institutions. It is only in doing so that we may prevent anarchy.

Malcolm Hall. 19 February 2008.



Signed: professors and students



A.S.A.R. ka na ba?

The Law Student Government Coordinating Council (UP Law Student Govt, Ateneo School of Law Student Council, UST Faculty of Civil Law Student Council and UE Law Student Government) invites you to A.S.A.R.an on 2/22@2.  (Feb 22, 2008 Friday @ 2pm).  A.S.A.R. stands for Advocacy for Sustained Accountability and Reforms.  

2pm - forum: Chika with Jun Lozada (Ateneo School of Law)
4:30pm - motorcade of Ateneo & UST Law Student Council to UP, and UP Law assembly at Malcolm Hall
5pm - sunduan ng kolehiyo sa UP (UP Law)
6pm - A.S.A.R.an (Quezon Hall, UP Diliman) - convergence of various groups in a cultural night / candle lighting for truth and accountability.  with Jun Lozada as special guest and performances from an Ateneo band, poetry reading from UST, etc. /  Mass of undergraduate UST students in UST

Wear white.  Please spread the word.  Tnx!



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Law students to fete Lozada
By Abigail Kwok
INQUIRER.net
First Posted 15:01:00 02/20/2008

MANILA, Philippines -- Student and young professionals have banded together to call the administration to "stop efforts to cover up the truth and be accountable for its immoral and corrupt acts as they pointed out the "sovereign right" of the people "to change a morally bankrupt and corrupt regime."

The 40 organizations, among them groups and student governments from major Metro Manila universities as well as schools in Mindanao and Northern Luzon, banded under the Youth for Accountability and Truth Now (Youth ACT Now), lauded Rodolfo Noel Lozada Jr., key witness in the Senate inquiry into the scandal-tainted national broadband network (NBN) deal, for exposing the alleged corruption that accompanied the now scrapped contract.

"We unite in collective aspiration to knock on the conscience of our leaders and to awaken hope in the spirit of the Filipino people to bring forth a movement for truth and social change," the youth alliance said in a statement issued Wednesday.

The student governments of Metro Manila-based law schools, under the Advocacy for Sustained Reform and Accountability (ASAR), are also holding simultaneous activities on Friday in support of Lozada, which will end in a Grand Salubong (Welcome) at the University of the Philippines in Diliman, Quezon City, where the NBN witness will be accorded a hero's welcome.

Lozada himself will be guest speaker at a 2 p.m. symposium at the Ateneo Law School in Rockwell, ASAR said in a statement.

At the University of Sto. Tomas, Lozada's alma mater, the law student council will issue its stand on the NBN issue, while at the University of the East, student leaders will launch a "brown ribbon campaign," symbolizing the Filipino people.



Wednesday, February 13, 2008

lino niccolo

he's my eldest brother, and for a guy who is extremely busy in school and with other stuff that he does, he can still be counted on to perform his "brotherly" duties when needed!

his name is on everyone's lips, especially mine.  when i need a driver, companion, photographer, and all-around guy, nicx is the guy i call.  he has never let me down. never, ever...

i wonder why he has never introduced any girl to me.  i remember asking him before why i haven't met his girlfriend yet.  he only said, "te, makuri kasi pumili ha ira ngatanan.  mas maupay it diri ka nala mapili." (ate, it's difficult to choose among a lot of girls, so i'd rather not choose any one.)  ayos. 

 

so... nicx, happy, happy birthday!!!  your future lies before you, so finish na your schooling... sige na... hahahaha...

balit, thanks for everything.  i owe you bigtime, for never giving me any problems and heartaches and disappointments (wellll, except for that schooling thing...).  i'm super proud of the person that you have turned out to be. 

sana, sana you'll never get tired of being the brother and friend that you are to me.   mwa!

 

 

Thursday, February 7, 2008

balanced mind


got this test from janjan... 


Apryll, you are Balanced-brained


That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation.

When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over.

While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.

The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.



take the same test here!

on my facebook account, i got a "i am right-brained" result.  so what's true???  oh well...
a quiz is a quiz is a quiz...


 

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

i heart you, heath...



i was on my way to the banyo this morning, barely awake, and passed dad on the computer...

dad: do you know that heath is dead?
me:  ha?  who?
dad:  an bayot ngani...  an cowboy... (the gay guy... the cowboy...)
me:  heath ledger???!!! he's not bayot!!!  i like him! 
(sad, sad face follows...)

seriously, i loved heath in "10 things i hate about you."  i loved him in both "the patriot" and "a knight's tale."  and i really, really committed myself to him after "brokeback mountain."

his death sucks big time.  i can't believe it more when they say that he committed suicide... 


CNN article
NY Times
Gawker.com articles




Tuesday, January 15, 2008

opening a window

What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.

You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. Your feet may be on the ground, but your head is in the clouds.

You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.

Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there.

For you, falling in love is all about the adventure and uncertainty. You can only fall in love with someone who keeps you guessing.

wild thing

Your Theme Song is Born to Be Wild by Steppenwolf
"I like smoke and lightning
Heavy metal thunder
Racin' with the wind
And the feelin' that I'm under"

A total independent spirit, you can't be held down or fenced in.
You crave the feeling of wind on your face... and total freedom.

still a hot momma!

You Are Very Sexy
Damn! You are one hot number. You have a lot of sex appeal.
You know you're sexy, and you're not afraid to put it all out there.

And while you're very appealing, you're careful not to be trashy or over the top.
Sexy is all about attitude. And you totally have the attitude that people love.

How You Are Sexy

You know what (or who) you want, and you're not afraid to go get it. What could be sexier than that?

You accept your body as it is, and that's sexy. If you feel attractive, you are more attractive - no matter what your shape is.

You feel gorgeous, and you always try to look your best. You make the best of what you've got. Totally sexy!

You are open to all sorts of experiences, and you have a taste for the exotic. Your adventurous spirit is very sexy.

brains manero can't eat

You Are a Total Brainiac
You're amazingly brilliant. Some would even say genius.
You're curious, thoughtful, analytical, and confident.

You take on difficult subjects because you want to... not because you have to.
No field of knowledge is too complicated or intimidating for you.

You've got the brains to do anything you want.
It's possible you end up doing everything you want.

vile, evil, devil.

You Are 74% Evil
You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.
getting addicted to these blogthings!!! mwehehehehe...

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

10% of UP@100


happy centennial to all UP people out there!!!

~ ~ ~

haaaay... UP memories...

kalayaan residence hall, 1994-1995:  hello to the girls of boy's annex!!!  rhea crisologo hernando, my roommate in BA32, is still a textmate even if we haven't seen each other in years!  and of course, to the kalayaan residence hall house council... liway arce, chairperson.  ako?  chair ng academic committee, no thanks to roentgen bronce... :)

molave residence hall, 1995-1998:  room 225 was the best, especially on those days & nights when i was there. (hehehe...)  grace lapena, karen rodolfo, jovy candado, jeena marquez... you made 225 home for me. (trivia:  when facing molave from across the street, look to the 2nd floor of the girls wing.  count 5 rooms from the left & 5 rooms from the right.  225 is the middle-est room.  just in front of the 2f girl's bathroom.)

my BA barkada:  paolo cortez, jenny evangelista, tanya saret, arnie buenaventura, lyne arnaldo-vega, hope jamero, jazz estacio, tonette badillo-ordona, mackie sanchez, mike bayot, edwin cleofe.  we really made the most out of our stay in the ugliest building on campus!!! (mary rose loria, kasama ka dito!)

Block D4, CBA 1994-1995
Business English class, summer 1996
Comm2 class, 2nd sem 94-95:  we had fun in subic with the aetas!

JFAers, 1995-1998:  genmeets, hell weeks, FPs, carolfest, inuman, cards, uno stacko, darts, inuman uli, my first porn viewing... hehehe. 

UP Sidlangan, 1995-1998:  waray makaka-pirde ha mga waray...  too bad i was busy with my lovelife that i wasn't able to make tambay too much... jet urmeneta, daryl delgado, bubbles aniceto, mandy aumento, kim enage, ruby ramos, dennis delgado, john palami, didits palami, ayne rile, tina arinto!!! (damo pa. as in damo pa...)

UPLaw 2004E: 
my gfs forever... arlene roura, mich gayondato. 
i was one of the boys... jolette fajardo, jard arbolado, henry kanapi, lan bulalacao, alvin navarro, malen manait. 
kikay din tayo... lumen perey-balboa, din bandon, pam abalos, debby sy.  ma'am melendres, na college sec ko when i graduated from college & classmate ko pala sa law. 
i will never forget how the whole class defended me from the evil cheapskate  CPA-from-hell-who-was-too-bobo-for-UP-law-naman-pala... hahaha :)

UPLaw 2005E:
yosi & coffee partners... pearl conde, mia mujer, namqui, joan de venecia (kahit hindi ka E. hehehe), chamaine enerva, rollyn malig, mars arias (hindi ka rin E!), kay & tina balajadia
overnighters... joey tapia, mia (uli), lyne (uli), rollyn (uli)
hosts-of-the-mostest... kris ablan (bow ako sa yo!), jamieson chua
drinking tequila on the steps of malcolm hall during our last malcolm night was THE capping off of my law school adventures.  kakaiba... julie vega, if only you were alive

sa mga E people:  you are always in my heart.

Bar 2005:  nicky balajadia & rollyn malig, those were the best of times, those were the worst of times.  (pero masarap talaga magluto ang mga taga-pampanga. hehehe.)

~ ~ ~

ang tagaaaal ko sa UP. 

4 years + 5 years + 1 year (na kahit LOA, pumupunta pa rin ako) = 10 years
and until now, i am constantly in UP.  mura kasi magpa-xerox sa SC.  convenient bumili sa coop.  kelangan ko mag-tapsilog fix sa rodic's time & again.  masarap mag-barbecue sa beach house.  someday makakapag-yosi din ako uli sa first floor chockiss, kahit patuloy akong nakakatambay sa aircon portion ng 2f chockiss.  kain tayo sa mang jimmy's.  sayang nawawala na si mommy thai... sana hindi na ako bawal mag-isaw!

marami akong pinagdaanan sa UP na alam kong hindi na-experience ng karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko.  perks of being an adventurous, pasaway dormer in college (buti nalang bisaya si roboguard!).  syempre, hindi ko pwede ikwento dito.  pag magkita nalang tayo, pwede pa siguro.

natutuwa naman akong isipin na sa sentenaryo ng UP, i basked in the glory of 10 years of those 100 years.  aba, 10% din yun. :)

happy centennial uli. :)



guarding the congress gates



i have previously written about the congress bombing which happened last november, and i know that 50% of the blame should really go to the lack or absence of proper security measures being implemented at the gates of congress.

as part of their "adjustments" after the bombing, the house security issued a memo informing all secretariat officials and employees that we had to 'register' our cars/vehicles with their bureau, and we in turn would be issued vehicle security passes.  so we filled out the forms, submitted our car registration papers, with proof of ownership if the car isn't registered in your name. 

and they, indeed, issued us these vehicle security stickers, which we had to stick onto the lower right hand portion of our car windshield (passenger side).  i, for one, do not prefer sticking anything on my windshield... but for this, i felt i had to comply, thinking that it would somehow help the guards or the PNP to  identify the vehicles as we pass through the gates.

lo and behold, the stickers don't mean anything.  they don't even mean sh*t.  despite the presence of a security pass, ALL vehicles go through the same procedure for security check:  a policeman opens the hood and peers into the car engine, goes to the back of the car and peers through the trunk, and then goes by the driver's side and asks where the driver/passenger is going.  if you have a congress id, your car is allowed to pass through.  if you're riding a cab or are just in the complex to visit or attend a meeting, you will be asked to leave an ID and you will be issued a gate pass.  this procedure applies to all vehicles which pass through the north gate --- vehicles of secretariat officials & employees, congressional staff, and guests.  (since the bombing, only congressmen's vehicles are allowed to pass through the main/south gate.)

the stickers are useless.  and again, the superficiality of the "new" security measures being implemented around the complex are hounding me.  if all vehicles have to go through the same security check, why print out and distribute those security stickers in the first place?  and does "peering" through the car engine and trunk, without touching anything else really help? 

i wonder how much in kickbacks did they receive when they had those useless stickers printed.  rush.  after all, one unit of a local Avaya telephone which we use here in the Mitra Building appears to cost PhP 31,500.  EACH. 

i wish i hadn't stuck that stupid "security" sticker on my windshield.  bugger.