rush

it was a hibernation of 9 years. 9 years of semi-quiet.

was. because the semi-quiet semi-peaceful semi-charmed life that i had is gone.  for now.

i have been pulled out of my comfort zone and XX weeks hence, i am so tired.  i never even saw a grain of sand the whole summer. exhausted does not even cover it, but yes, i am e-x-h-a-u-s-t-e-d.  still, i am happy where i am.  this is it for me.

i feel that i am out of practice, out of sync, kinda out of whack, but yes, i'm still very much in it...  it's the rush of doing something important, something that matters that makes me believe that this is all somehow just worth it.  it's the hope that the little things you do could make a difference in other people's lives.  it's the small rush that jolts you to action, when you know that the work you do is appreciated and, more importantly, needed.

i missed this.  seriously, honestly, absolutely missed this.

and i am so glad to be back. 

so hello there philippines.  rauf, babe, cross your fingers that mom does this better the second time around. 

and as an equally-exhausted, trying-to-be-witty and not-so-old man said to me an hour ago: "tomorrow this will all  be over. tomorrow and the next six years." and i replied, "six for you, three for me. let's see what happens."

yeah.