Monday, October 19, 2009

choice




to move Mom to a private room, so we can be with her 24/7 until her body gives in, until God takes her away from us...
or to let Mom stay in the sterile conditions of the ICU, where the clinical treatment of doctors and nurses and aides will be available to her 24/7, while her kids and the family can only visit her at 10minutes per schedule, 4 times a day.

i never imagined i would be facing this decision this early on in my life.
my youngest brother is only 13.
rauf is only 1.

but reality bites:
my Mom's kidneys are failing (or have failed).  dialysis is out because her blood pressure, which ranges only from 70/30 - 60/20, is too low.  her heart might not be able to handle more stress. 

realities. miracles.
they are colliding, conflicting worlds.

God help us.



10 comments:

tina b said...

praying you make the right choice. hang in there. we're all rooting for your mom's recovery.

Cielo Magno said...

sorry to hear this Plang. will pray for you & your mom...

Raissa Villasin said...

hang in there Plang! I will pray that the Holy Spirit guide you on this decision that you have to make. *hugs*

Janjan Perez said...

I think you should put yourself in her shoes. What would she want?

Praying hard for you and your family. Take care Plang.

Greg G. jr said...

i agree with janjan.

i can fully relate with you, apryll. i've been through this in august 1997.

Angeli Tabin said...

Ate, condolences to your family. I heard just now. I'll continue praying for your whole family.

Greg G. jr said...

my condolences to you and your family, apryll. i know you will be stronger than ever. take care.

Ria Berbano said...

condolences, apryll...

Cristina G.C. said...

Condolences, Apryll. God bless.

Christine . said...

praying for you and your family pril. be strong. hang in there. this is really a tough decision but i'm sure God will lead you in the right direction.