carpe diem-ing

It's all very well to say you fool it's now or never
I could be choosing
No choices whatsoever

I could be
In someone else's story
In someone else's life
And he could be in mine
I don't see
A reason to be lonely
I should take my chances
Further down the line

-from Chess, the musical
(and shamelessly copied from tina's post.  tenchu, tina!)


i am in deep sh*t and i can't care less. 

this happens everytime we see each other, and this is the first time we've really talked about it.  aminan na kung aminan.  life is short.  we won't stay young forever.  apparently, it wasn't just me.  and it has never been just physical. (though we haven't tried that too.)  with my baby and all, i thought this time would be different.  it wasn't. 

it's as if the skies have opened up, and i can literally see the silver lining.  or at least a hint of it. 

i know i will forever regret it if i don't even give this a chance.  except that i will need to move mountains AND rock a few boats to just even try. 

but i/we will try. 

God help me.